pain, chronic

Enduring pain is really a difficult task much like rolling a heavy round ball up a steep incline. There is no rest. No chance for renewal. At first one hopes it will end. One imagines the top of the hill. Then hope fades. The realty is there is strength for one more step so you continue. And continue. And continue. If you stop the weight will crush you. But even those dark words are enlightened by reason. We humans can reflect on our own experiences and the meaning of our frail physical existence.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18

[16] So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. (ESV)

[17] For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, (ESV)

[18] as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. (ESV)

65

It was a good birthday and I achieved a milestone. I am 65. My third nap seemed to help! The high point was a zoom call with the kids!

sleep deprived

I remember in 2017, when my aortic valve dissolved, how sick I was and how sleep deprived also because I was too sick to sleep. Thankfully, I am not nearly so sick this time but I am miserable enough to have trouble sleeping. 

er and est

3 am ish English

Miserable has too many syllables to make a comparative by adding the suffix “er”.  So I am not “miserabler” but rather I am more miserable.  Thankfully I am not most miserable nor “miserabilest”. 

This English lesson brought to you by the vowel “e” and consonants “r,s, and t” and a few extra measures of misery.

Sickly Sunday

I attended Sunday School and church by Zoom and Facebook Live while holding a bucket and pacing in pain. I suppose that is an advantage of 2020.